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the brevity of life Aug. 11th, 2009 @ 01:57 am
I went into work today to find out that one of my co-workers died in a house fire Friday night. He was a nice kid, only 21 years old. He had only worked with me for a few weeks but it's still really shocking.

on a much lighter note Lindsey and I will now get the keys to our place on the 14th and my last day at L'Oreal is the 21st. I can't wait the see what the future holds. It's so nerve wracking and exciting at the same time.

Aug. 5th, 2009 @ 02:26 am
This post will be scant on details but will cover whats important.

Had a great weekend in Columbus with Lindsey
Went to the Ohio State Fair
Found an apartment that we love
I was called off work yesterday when I came in.
Today at Work 6 people were let go.
Lindsey and I tentatively move into our apartment August 21st 2009
Current Mood: excited

!!!!!!!!! Jul. 15th, 2009 @ 12:35 pm
Lindsey got the job at Tween. We're moving to Columbus!

this is, sadly, dead on. Jul. 15th, 2009 @ 01:56 am
The False Messiah Deliberate Brutal Love Master (DBLM)
The False Messiah

People believe in you, and then you send them to hell. Behold, the False Messiah.

You’re usually a very kind person, and conscientious, too. Socially, you’re a leader, and your friends and associates look up to you. You're probably tall. In intimate relationships, you’re a capable, responsive, and experienced lover. Outside the box, however, you run into trouble.

Girls fall hard for you, but you’re much more ambivalent about them. The beginnings of your relationships are unusually intense, making it all the rougher on her when they end. At first, using all your accumulated tricks of the trade, you ladle on the affection. But once she’s all covered in soup, you withhold the true napkins of commitment. What’s that all about? We should’ve called you the False Waiter.

You’re looking for Love. But history tells us you struggle to settle down and accept it. There’s a deep streak of carnality within you. And while you’ll never be a predator, you’ll always fight the urge to roam free. You like to plan things out, so plan this: find someone who can indulge your selfish side, has a healthy sexual appetite, and doesn’t mind uncertainty.


---------------

Yep.
Current Mood: shocked

Jul. 4th, 2009 @ 02:23 am
GERRY RAFFERTY - BAKER STREET HAS BEEN MY SONG AS OF LATE. FUCK I HAD SUCH A GOOD TIME TONIGHT. I DON';T CARE WHAT ANYONE SAYS. I'VE BEEN DRINKING. ALOT. BUT I HAD A GRAND TIME TONIGHT. I REALLY DO LOVE MY FRIENDS ESPECIALLY BRI, GLENNA, AND SERENE,AND KATIE EVEN THOUGH SHE IS MAKING HER LIFE DOWN IN DAYTON. (KATIE I MET A KID TONIGHT THAT WAS FROM OAKWOOD GET AT ME>) NOT LASHEA BECAUSE SHE TALKED SHIT ABOUT MY DICK. FUCK THAT. I MET SOME NICE FOLKS TONIGHT LIKE SARAH, AND SOME INDIAN GIRL ( TISHA?) AND I HAD MY FIRST CLOVE CIGARETTE IN ABOUT FOUR YEARS. IT WAS GOOD. HOLY SHIT I'M DRUBNK I WILL REGRET THIS IN THE MORNING.


I SMELL LIKE SMOKE.
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» "Let's never talk about this again"
SO i just finished watching 4 Months, 3 Weeks and 2 Days and I have to say that it made me really uncomfortable the entire time. When I get anxious I tend to bounce on balls of my feet. I never noticed this up until a few years ago with Lindsey and a few of my friends pointed it out. Well I caught myself doing it while i was watching the movie.
Don't get me wrong though, I thought it was really great. The dialogue seems so nature and the interaction between the couple in the bedroom at his parents place was spot on.

Basically i felt that it was difficult but it had to be done.
Jul. 1st, 2009 @ 01:26 am
» crazy day
Today has been nuts. but in a good way. I worked from 1 till 5 and during that time the place caught fire! I guess a light started to burn then it fell onto a conveyor belt with then also caught fire. We had to stay out of the building for porbably 45 minutes. When we went back it there way a smokey haze in the air and it made my lungs hurt. After I left work i came home did laundry then left to go see Black Moth Super Rainbow for the second time this month. The show was different than the one in Columbus not better or worse per se just differnet. I like the stage set up in Columbus better and the opener but in Cleveland there were these strange masked dancers that danced on stage and in the crowd. I saw a few people I knew like the Brittany girl that was in my Spanish class last semester (Bri you know her) and Ryan Lovejoy, Aba - who acted like she didn't see me and Dan, Marty Fitz, and Brad. Also at the show were A TON OF SUPER FUCKING CUTE INDIE GIRLS! It was like putting an alcoholic in a liquor store, i swear. I ended up buying a CD and an LP.

After the show I went to Brett's surprise birthday party with was a lot of fun. I really miss hanging out with him. I got to see Brett, Bri his super awesome girlfriend, Stan, Dixon, and seemingly every employee of the Cleveland Apple Store. They were all very nice, very hip folks.

now its 20 till five and my head hurts. I have to go to bed.
Jun. 28th, 2009 @ 04:23 am
» Black Reignbows featuring Super Moth
Last weekend was one of the best weekends I have had in a very long time.

Friday: After work I drove down to Dublin to see Lindsey, we went to this place called Mary Kelley's. I recommend it if you ever find yourself hungry and in Dublin Ohio. After that we went back to her fathers house which is where she's staying for now. I think we ended up playing some Wii then heading to bed. We slept in separate rooms. No fun.

Saturday: Lindsey woke me up around nine and we started our day she told me that she wanted to get my birthday present now ( a month and a half before my birthday ) because she said I would be able to use it more if we got it now. She got me a driver! I've wanted to start golfing for years and now I'm a step closer. I ended up getting a Cleveland HiBore XLs. I absolutely love it. Lindsey bought herself one too and right after that we went to a driving range and hit some balls. We then went to her Mother's house which is right on the Muirfield golf course (12th hole , 13th tee) to watch the Memorial Tournament. We were there for about an hour, got to see Tiger Woods, then Lindsey thought that her dog's eye was bleeding so we spent the next hour and a half at the vet. The dog is fine it was an abrasion above the eye. We then headed into Columbus to get some dinner and Raisin' Caines. We proceeded to Skully's to have a few drinks before the Black Moth Super Rainbow. Met up with Katie and Paul. Drank and perused Magnolia Thunderpussy Records then went back into Skully's for the show. School of Seven Bells opened for BMSR, I only know one song by SVIIB but I enjoyed their set even if they were 90 minutes behind schedule. I wish the mix would have been better though, you could barely hear the vocal harmonies. Black Moth Super Rainbow started the show with this song with what seemed like a powerpoint slideshow of Juggalo photos. It was hilarious.
Here's the song:

During the show the stage was completely dark with videos being projected onto a sheet behind the band.
Here is one of the videos that they used:

I loved the show, so did Katie, Paul liked the music but hated the visuals and Lindsey hated all of it but she was a trooper and stuck it out.
After the show Lindsey, Katie, Paul and I headed to White Castle.

Sunday: Lindsey and I got up got some lunch then headed back over to her mother's to catch the end of the tournament. I got to see Tiger again, Ernie Els, Jim Furyk among others. I had an amazing time. Lindsey's mother took us out to dinner at a place called Matt the Miller's and it was one of the best meals I have had in a very long time. I had a really great burger with sweet potato fries.

Tonight I watch The Wrestler. I enjoyed it but didn't love it per se but it had its moments.

and I'm completely broke.
Jun. 9th, 2009 @ 01:16 am
» weekend recap
I know I've been neglecting this and I feel bad about it because I know in the future I'll want to look back and remember what was going on and when. So without further ado...

Lindsey graduated on Saturday. It was the first commencement I could work up the nerve to go to, seeing as how depressed I get about the fact that I haven't had the privilege of having my own. During commencement it all because really real to me about how my life is now changing. The high point for me was getting to shake hands with and talk to Usama Young ( http://scores.espn.go.com/nfl/players/profile?playerId=10510 ) who is probably one of the nicest people I have ever met. I told congratulations on graduating and how he inspired me to come back and finish up then he said thanks and asked what my major was.
After commencement everyone went to dinner at Bahama Breeze, it was a good meal. When we came back to Kent we have to move Lindsey out of her house which ended  up being an all day project which didn't end until around 9pm. My legs are still sore two days later.
Yesterday Lindsey and I spent the day bumming around my apartment (one of my favorite things to do with her) . When Lindsey left for home I started what I hope will be a summer long series of one movie a night. Last night it was the Oscar winning documentary Man on Wire. It was a great story but only a decent movie. Then it was a stand up dvd that i ended up almost falling asleep to.  Tonight I am finally going to get around to watching No Country for Old Men. I have really high hopes for this one.
May. 18th, 2009 @ 11:27 am
» Today's events
I'm furious about what happen today in Kent. For those who don't know there was a riot about a block away from the university which was devolved from a block party earlier in the day in which I attended because Lindsey lives on the corner of said block. I drank to much to early and had an awful headache around 5pm so I decided to walk home and sleep it off till about 9pm Lindsey calls me and tells me that the Kent Police Department were shooting rubber bullets and using either tear gas or pepper spray ( she wasn't certain which it was).  After that I got another phone call from her saying that a huge fire was started in the middle of the street. I kept getting these updates all night, they included sign and stip signs being ripped from the ground, smaller fires being started, arrests being made, Lindsey have to turn the hose on people so they would get out of her garage, etc. Meanwhile I'm following all the twitter updates from friends saying basically the exact same things.
Every time i think about I grit my teeth, clench my fists and just get completely taken by anger. I know I shouldn't and it's silly to get worked up over something that is over and i had no control over in the first place but i can't help it.

People are fucking idiots, fucking groupthink.

Also I wanted to state for the record (because this is of course the livejournal of record) that most  of the people in the riot weren't frat guys. there are only a couple frat houses even on that block and it pisses me off that my friends, my open minded friends would assume that it was caused by people in frats. If the facts come in over the next few days and it was mostly frats gus I will eat my words but until then why don't we hold off on our prejudices.

My father called me after he saw the breaking news coverage on Cleveland's NBC affiliate and asked me if i was in jail.
Apr. 26th, 2009 @ 01:15 am
» interests
I just updated my interested on here. Wow. I must not have updated them in 5 years. I mean Friendster was on there. I couldn't even tell you what year i was last on Friendster.

Twitter will be the next Friendster.
Mar. 21st, 2009 @ 01:26 am
» Out on the town
I've really been neglecting this thing and that bothers me.

So the last two nights I've gone out. Friday night after work i went out with my friends Bri and Glenna. I had a great time made a new friend, Katryn,  and overall it was just good to be out and about again. Last night i went out with Lindsey and her friends Hayley, Sarah, and Becky. I had an awful time. I couldn't really figure out why until a few minutes ago when i realized that it wasn't the fact that i was sick, or that it was raining but it was the fact that I would've rather been out with my friends. I have a better time with my friends, I don't feel like I have to babysit my friends. Also I think the choice of bars made a difference too.That's not to say i don't enjoy hanging out with Lindsey and her friends its just going out is always the same. Oh well. Live and learn I guess. Lindsey and her friends are going to Panama City Beach for spring break and I know its going to be a complete shit show. If some doesn't get arrested, go missing, or die it will be a successful week for them.
Mar. 8th, 2009 @ 12:50 pm
» (No Subject)
i have a radio show in three hours and ionly have half a playlist and i don't know what else to put on. fuck.
Feb. 22nd, 2009 @ 09:07 pm
» Bonita Applebum
source: MTV Music

Jan. 3rd, 2009 @ 03:53 pm
» 2008
2008

1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
lived alone, had a kidney stone, one job the entire year, went on vacation alone.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
no, and no

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
actually some people i know did give birth.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Lindsey's grandfather

5. What countries did you visit?
none.

6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
an apartment in Brooklyn and a job I enjoy going to everyday.

7. What date(s) from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
dec. 23rd - kidney stone, August 1st.- moved into my new apartment, got into a car accident.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
keeping my head above water.

9. What was your biggest failure?
damaging friendships and relationships.

10. Did you suffer any illness or injury?
yes

11. What was the best thing you bought?
probably my Ohio shirt.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Lindsey for being a saint.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
my own

14. Where did most of your money go?
rent, food, and electricity

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
going to New York to see Lindsey.

16. What song will always remind you of 2008?
Anything by Minus the Bear.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? sadder
ii. thinner or fatter? thinner
iii. richer or poorer? poorer

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
enjoyed living with dan. spending time with friends.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
think about mistakes I've made.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
i spent it with lindsey and her family.

21. How will you be spending New Year's?
drunk with Lindsey

22. Did you fall in love in 2008?
all over again.

23. How many one-night stands?
moving on...

24. What was your favorite TV program?
Mad Men

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didnt hate this time last year?
no

26. What was the best book you read?
I don't recall reading anything. 

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Houseguest.

28. What did you want and get?
privacy.

29. What did you want and not get?
a fulfilling job.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
There Will Be Blood, Cloverfield

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I had two cookouts with friends and family. 24

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
quality time with friends.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
casual classy. completely unoriginal

34. What kept you sane?
Dan, Lindsey

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
i don't even know.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
the election

37. Who did you miss?
all of my old friends. seriously every single one.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
i don't know

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008:
Love the one you are with.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
Old man look at my life,
Twenty four
and there's so much more
Live alone in a paradise
That makes me think of two.



Jan. 2nd, 2009 @ 04:44 pm
» Kidney Stoned.
So I went to the urologist today to have him check out my CAT scans from when I went to the ER last week. Turns out I actually have two kidney stones, one on each side,  and because I am still feeling some discomfort the doctor said I may not have actually passed it yet. He also informed me that I will have to change my diet to include less red meat, nuts, and caffeinated drinks. This isn't going to be easy.

My favorite part of this year so far has to be VH1 Classic playing 2009 videos. I mean its 4:30 on the 2nd and they are only on F. I love it.
Jan. 2nd, 2009 @ 04:28 pm
» (No Subject)
apparently i passed the kidney stone christmas eve. DIdn't feel a thing.
Dec. 27th, 2008 @ 12:53 pm
» Day 4
It's hard trying to find a bright spot from yesterday. At 11am I thought i was having a gall bladder attack so I had Lindsey drive me to the hospital. It seemed like forever before i was seen by someone, then i ended up getting morphine for the pain which knocked me out. While i was out I had a CAT scan and it turns out i have a kidney stone. So I got some meds including Percocet and they sent me on my way. I just got up about an hour ago. Now I just have to pass this stone. I just hope this doesn't ruin my Christmas.

I guess today I am happy for morphine and Lindsey for waiting on me hand and foot.
Dec. 24th, 2008 @ 10:20 am
» day three of happiness
I had an interview at work and i think that i did well. Also Lindsey was a sweetheart and ironed my clothes.
Dec. 23rd, 2008 @ 01:13 am
» day two
Lindsey came up and surprised me. We've been hanging out most of the day.

yay!
Dec. 21st, 2008 @ 09:42 pm

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